Tuesday, April 30, 2013

God's weaving

my boys have been in private schools.
i have homeschooled them.
right now they are in public schools.
i think there are positive and negatives to all the choices.
this is not a post about which is better.
and i totally understand when someone says this is what they are going to do for this year.
i really miss homeschooling my boys.
i enjoyed it.  like a whole lot.
but, we felt like God wanted our boys back in school.
so we enrolled them in school.
so, i ask God all the time if i can homeschool at least some of them again.
it has nothing to do with their wonderful schools,
but it has everything to do with me.
He hasn't said yes yet.
(this really does have a point- at least for me)
one night last week one of my big boys was frustrated about some school stuff.
he was so mad he just wanted to break something is what he said.
somehow (obviously it was the Holy Spirit) i got the idea that he needed to get the sledge hammer and bust up some concrete blocks.
the remains and weeds.
i sat on the swing set with bo christian in my lap.
while watching my boy, i was confused, mad and sad.
he was so angry.
i started praying.  i wanted to homeschool him and protect him.
then, God made it clear.
this is why my boy needs to be in school.
my boy needs to go through this.
i know all of this will help my boy to want God more.
that is all really want for each of my boys.
and it is making me lean more on God also.
it is amazing to me how God weaves all of our lives.
he sees all the details and misses nothing.

and boys are so different from girls!!!
after all his sledge hammering, he was a happy peaceful boy again..??..

Monday, April 29, 2013

birthday season #1

it's birthday season #1 here.
 which means the 3 oldest boys and i all have our birthdays within 15 days.
so if you take that and add
a husband, 5 boys, a house to run and
a mom with low iron...
you get me barely crawling through my days.
but after a few hamburgers, a weekend with my favorite people and a clean house,
i feel like walking through my days again.
(why does a clean house help so much??)
first, bauer turned 13.
he is making a liar out of all the people who say teenagers are difficult.
he's been a teenager for a whole 11 days and he's not turned on us yet.
just the other night he told me that before he goes to sleep at night he checks on each of his brothers.
and bronson is now 10!
because of him, i now have more boys that are double digits than single digits.
my poor middle child.
he is so sweet and easy and the only blond one i've got.
i did not get a good picture of him.
and his cake turned out, ummm...
however, my creative boy made the top look good:
and today is my birthday. 
i get to be 38 years old.

husband decorated my bathroom mirror.
the sun is shining and it is going to get up to 80' today.
bo christian and i have already been for a run.
after the boys get out of school, caden and i are going to the eye doctor.
husband is "cooking" supper at our favorite burrito joint
since kids eat free tonight.
exciting things happen when you turn 38 years old!
then, thursday is caden's 12th birthday.
birthday season #2 will not be until november.
the husband and the 2 little boys have their birthdays then.
nope, we didn't plan to birth our kids so close to our birthdays.
i do like a good plan, but not that much!